Exposed beta coming out

I’ve been posing on here for years under btiny, btiny2inch, tiny2inch, b_tiny and I can’t remember all the hacked accounts and names. I exposed myself a cpl of years ago in hear meaning face and name. I don’t know who or how but it worked because I got fired at work because they all knew I was a perv with a little dick, and even my friends make fun of my tiny penis and they make black cock comments and know I cross dress and wish I could be a sissy so black men would be attracted to me snd use my boi pussy.  I’ve been lamplighted for 7-8 years and whoever is running the show has influenced me on the internet brainwashing me and even denying me dates on dating sites and controlling what porn I watch and feeding my fantasy and desires. 

Now I have no way out and since it’s been 7 yrs I e been pussy free and now have no desire to date a woman but I’m still attracted to them but I can’t satisfy women and hate faking it. I was in denial of my true desires to be with dominant men, tall and muscular with big cocks. I will wait until the right one comes into my life and is cool just meeting him, easy to get along with and catches me looking at his huge bulge and say you like my huge cock dont you.  I say yes and curiosly say your already hard for me and he says it gets twice as big when I’m hard and he says I’ll take you home and you can get me hard. Instantly I say ok and we get there and he forces me to strip and humilliates me then make me suck him for hours and of course I love it but scared because he’s so massive. Then he grabs me and bends me over his couch lubing me fingering my pussy then he sinks his cock deep in me I say stop but he already is thrusting in and out and holding my arms behind me and the pain starts to get me wetter and he positions me and opens me up deep inside my ckit dripping now I m freaking out moaning Cumming inside and outside. In shock how much I like it he keeps telling I’m a good faggot. He pulls out and forced down on my knees grunting and moaning he puts it in my face says open up and take my load and don’t let any go to waste bitch   grossed out he notices and the shoves in my mouth as he explodes his balls dealing down my throat and he cums longer than I’ve seen I already am squeezing his big balls trying to milk more out for him and squirts the rest on my face. I stroke him saying he was to rough that I’m sore. He then says go take a hot bath get high and go to my bed. Then I’ll shower and come to bed. He tells me I’m going to fuck your tight ass all weekend and if don’t let me I’ll send you home