I’m terrified of men with big muscles

I’m terrified of men with big muscles.  Look at HIM, He’s utterly gorgeous. I’m sooo attracted to musclemen. My wife divorced me when she discovered I masturbated to bodybuilding magazines. But I was always afraid that when I solicited them they would get angry at me and beat me up for being a sissy faggot. Then they’d rip off my panties and show everyone how tiny my micro penis is !  And still i wouldn’t get to suck their big cocks and worship their hard bulging muscles ! But I would be able to go home and jerk off the rest of the night to the utter humiliation and rejection.