Origins of Tiny and accepting I’m a beta male

My thumbnail for this post is one of my first posted pics and my first time making my tiny penis look proper, hairless pubescent pathetic and I exposed tiny publicly. I had jerked of for years to this site in denial still thinking I’m a normal straight guy. But gooning edging and fantasizing about my ex cuckolding me with black hung alphas I became addicted and gay and we played with toys and she was a hot petite strawberry blonde with the best ass ever and she could take a 12 inch dong. I so badly wanted to see her riding Mandingos massive black cock reverse cowgirl telling me how deep in her guts he was getting and make my me lick her while on him telling me that’s all I’ll ever get to do is use my tongue because his cock is 5 times bigger. She would have been fun and she would have done anything her bull or bulls said and been very mean from humiliating to having me breed. She would eventually have her bulls visit whenever making me go away with a task to keep me busy and give all of her sexy kinky self to him only allowing me into her bedroom after he used her tight white holes all night to lick her pussy and ass.