Seeking Advice

I know this is a weird place to talk about this, and I’m sorry, but I feel it’s still as good of a place as any.

I really don’t like my body. Hell, one of the reasons I like sharing pics of myself here is because sometimes people reassure me of my beauty when I often can’t.

I’m too fat. I’m too hairy. My cock is too small. My hair is too dry. My skin is too dry. Blah blah blah blah blah blah.

I.. just want to know some things… and I’m asking as someone who is really still young and still new to being an adult… 

Things will get better, right? Or is that just something people say for the sake of being nice? 

Will I ever get to be comfortable in my own body?

How many years of envy and self-hatred before I look like the person I want to look like, when I don’t even fucking know what that really is, beyond comfortable?

I’m sorry to bring down the mood with this. But I don’t exactly know many people I can ask, and I guess it just makes sense for me to ask things about my body here, y’know?

I have a hard time feeling like more than an object when it comes to sexual stuff. I seem to forget that even if I’m being slutty or whatever I’m still human. 

Maybe I should sleep for now.