Very tiny when limp

I’m finally to the point I’m ready to actually start looking for a companion and when I do and they will already accept what I’m doing and what I am. I’m sure I’ll still struggle with not being in control and learning to submit and letting them fuck me however they desire. I hope they are strict but kind that they enjoy me as a person and lead me slowly down the path of pain but pure pleasure. Either a mistress or a black master is what I want but best would be my friend and my lover.