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very str8 acting closet wnabcd4bbc, always loved ts,tv and i'v had plenty of experiences with them from my first in which i as a 16 yr old kid walking to the train station to pick up my lil cousin from school stopped what appeared to be a big breasted tall amazonian goddess from being run over by shouting for her to stop as she went to walk into the road looking the wrong way in a foriegn country as a car came towards her, she jumped back n seemed dazed i approached her and made sure she was ok she gave me a hug and a kiss as i stood there mesmerized as her big fake tits pressed against me and her inflated lips kissed my cheek after she thanked me i was captivated by her and we introduced ourselves and began to walk together down a quiet cobbled back street as we spoke and walked side by side i began to subconsciously connect a few obvious dots in my head that my initial state had not noticed given the situation that had occurred i mean i was a bit caught up i felt good chatting to this beautiful exotic lady who was very thankful and kind to me for helping her. her voice seemed slightly deep, her jaw was slightly masculine the structure of her shoulders seemed large but she was just tall i told myself then i saw her large hands and spotted some small singular dark hairs dotted on her huge fake tits that burst out the top of her tight boob tube her perky nipples clearly erect through her skin tight top and her long long sexy smooth legs in that short skirt she looked like a hot tranny escort it was clear she was a he this was a man but strangely i didnt care she was like a hot glamour model, an older exotic milf type and i didnt care. I told her how beautiful she was and we stopped our eyes met and she kissed me deeply she was forceful with her tongue and battled me hard into submission as she repeatedly invaded my mouth our tongues locked in an erotic swirling sexually crazed dance she rubbed my package through my trousers and i took her into a block of quiet flats that had secured doors and she sat on the stairs as we kissed some more she grabbed at my pants as i slid them down my already semi hard cock was looking nice to her as she said mmm big boy as the boxers slipped down in sections revealing inch after inch but by 5 n a bit i was there exposed infront of this hot trans goddess she must have thought i was flaccid as it didnt really get much bigger maybe max 6 inches as she squeezed it roughly and tugged a few times but she was reluctant to suck it as i had hoped and thought she would maybe the size wasnt adequate i thought to myself as she spread her legs exposing her package in plain sight under her skirt it appeared alot bigger i became abit daunted as the reality of where she was trying to suggestively take this redenvouz set in and i saw a devilish look in her eye as if she was ordering me to look at its impressiveness again i felt compelled to glance again and couldnt help but notice thru the fabric of her sexy pink thong a thick snake of a cock running down tight around the curvature of her gooch. trying to assert myself i demanded she stand and lemme see that big portuguese bubblebutt she briefly did as asked and as i gropped her jiggling ass i could see her large cockhead poking back between her ass cheeks thru her thong presumably strapped into the fabric to give her a tucked look out front but it was hard to hide that monster and i slyly almost accidently allowed my pinky n index fingers to brush against her cock as i slid my hands over her ass she moaned out loud and i knew she wanted me to touch it for real then suddenly some one in there flat further up was coming out n would b on the stairs soon she seemed spook as i was telling her to wait but she wanted to leave so she got up b4 they could come down n i followed after her she moaned the lack of a condom n said she dont like that situation to do things out in public places like that excuses i thought disappointed with myself that i had been so horny to be seduced by a tranny n then not be able to dominate her in some way to make me feel like the heroic macho man she had initially thought i was but as we got more involved in the making out it felt like she was the dominant force and though there was no condom and we got disturbed the same open minded part of me that let me find myself here with this exotic tgirl wondered if it had gone further would she have fucked me and that i probably would of let her and i kinda secretly wanted her to so this is how i came to fetishize transexual woman and the thought of going both ways with one became a fantasy for sure. we never saw each other again but something was sparked in me and though i would rub my gooch n ass sometimes while i jerked i carried on the dominant side of personality in such future encounters i addictively pursued with these tgirls rather unsuccessfully online, much of the time causing me to question my own prowess as a man and my ability to pick chicks up online lol all the meanwhile getting really into being stoned n docile looking at interacial tgirl porn mainly huge bbc fucking sexy white tgirls yet still in complete denial and associating myself with the guy telling myself how much i'd love 2 fuck a tight sissy asspussy hard like that in my head while i rhythmically run my middle finger ever so gently along my gooch to my ass sending shots of electricity running thru to my hole. this was enough for me most of the time as i swear my prostate is enlarged or something and part of it is connected to my gooch as whenever i touch there its so sensitve n my orgasm soo fckin intense. i'v watched so much of it in secret now for the past 8 years at least but it started when i was 18 n got a laptop after i survived a stabbing by a black dude i wasnt afraid of blacks until then i had lots of friends n kept up my dom/masculine image even though i was watching alot of ts porn n having these thought but one weekend when i had the house completely alone my parents where away i found some really kinky stuff of my mums lingerie corsets and bras and panties being high and alone with all this here my mind grew curious n i became horny to dress up n see what i would look like, i first shave my face then done some make up without a clue but it looked ok i looked feminised in the face then i found a wig wow bingo i was enjoying this i was a sexy blonde bimbo i felt amazing as i pulled on an amazing pair of red panties i found that had a purpose built in hole in the bum so i could keep them on during my first anal i thought wow my mums nawty i thought but im gonna b worse lol i put on matching red bra n suspenders then the heels wow i felt so good as i sat there in my free house smoking weed dressed en femme 4 the 1st time playing ps4 talking like a girl on my headset wow i felt free then later i went back looking for her sextoys i found in a small bag in another set of drawers anal beads and a rampant rabbit this is it i thought using some bby oil i found i lubricated my whole n started with the beads not to mention the oil on my cock felt unreal i was enjoying myself as i slowly penetrated my ass for the first time this felt great it was so nice no pain at all and i kept going deeper before i knew it i had the rabbit out n it was truely taking my virginity as it stretched my tight ass n pushed deeper exploring parts of me untouched before but my ass new exactly what to do as i naturally massaged it wit my inner muscles milking the toy i bucked wildly on it taking it to the deepest point where the clit stimulator bunny ears bit starts, i was sliding up n down on the well oiled toy i decided to turn on the controls a little vibration would be a new experience i pressed one of 2 identical buttons not knowing the controls the toy starting swirling around at the head deep inside my newly deflowered asspussy it was spreading me open deep and at some rate of knots it felt good feeling it swirling in my ass but it was 2 fast i slowed it down to a perfect setting n turned on the vibrating button to around the same level i had taken my first real step down the rabbit hole and fuck i was loving this i jerked and jerked while i fucked n fucked my ass this was amazing i never cam so hard b4 and all weekend i fckd myself into a sissy euphoric state before passing out drained but i never got caught. over the next 8 yrs i'v explored many things physically but the bbc sissy slut side has always been a strict fantasy as i feel so conflicted after one black guy tried t kill me like i cant trust them i dont feel safe around them n this bbc nwo illuminati sissy stuff i have discovered makes me feel like shit that i fantasize about it when its almost satanic especially the slavery aspects and forced feminisation of whites in some the hypno it makes me feel guilty like im a traitor so i have never wanted to fulfill the so called prophecy of being turned out bb n breed by a bbc bull but the more i watch sissy hypnos n see the propaganda in them the deeper it becomes n more i wish i could start again where no one knew me as a fckin dirty bbc sissy bimbo bitch plus the media is in on it everythings becoming about them its like i feel insignificant to them they're taking over so u may as well submit now coz wheather its now or 20yrs down the line you will get turned out especially in this bnwo that is emerging. one particular in which after i had fckd her she fucked me with her vibrator while she sucked my cock that really opened me up ;) to the idea of exploring my booty, this led me on to a journey of self exploration in my intensely closeted life living in a cramped home with family i would go to my room late at night most evenings after smoking alot of maryjane(£20 a day) and watch alot of tranny porn